I want it to be okay, I want the stinging pain in my heart to just go away, I can’t deal with this, I can’t do this, not right now, not when I’m as lost as ever. I can’t force this facade of laughter, the constant I’m okay, I can’t do it, I have no strength anymore. I don’t have the energy to be strong, my heart is full of shame, my soul is crying for peace, my mind is screaming at me, reminding me about the many sins I’ve committed.
My body is weak, shattered & useless. I’m sitting in my room, the walls are closing in on me & I’m crying, I’m screaming for a light, a light to enter me & kill these demons that live inside of me.